Bi , i know you miqht feel that i'm selfish and stuff likethat . k , that my normal me . I know i'm troublesome sometimes . I know i'm crazy sometimes . I know i'm stupid sometimes , i know i throw tantrums at you everytime and asked for b**** sometimes . Was seriously angry with you but didn't mean about the b****ups . I apologised for that . I'm sorry . Look at the last time , we started writinq normal letters to each other . Next , we start writing all the love stuff and you asked for stead . We loved each other until the whole class know and Miss Chew wanna break both of us up . See how amazinq is it ? You make me pissed off sometimes and you say " Next time , you see me you can slap me." I was thinking , Do you think those slaps do stop my love for you huh silly boy ? I told you , i want to see your 'brave' side and your 'strong' side not your 'weaker' side . Everytime i'm without any confident , you will come and support me and clap very loudly . Sometimes i think , you are kind of handsome person and clever person how can you choose a bad girlf like me . I really dunno why i like to look down on myself . Maybe you know why ? We used to slack after school . I remember there is one time , we watched movie together with Ganhuat , Wali and Rizwan , i forgotten to buy my jacket along . So i was cold . You wanted to give me your jacket so that i'm not cold . But i say alright you need it too . So you just used your warm hands and grabbed my hand super duper tight not letting it off . Your hands are super warm . 5 days before the 35th Anniversary , we went to Henderson CC for our first performations i'm playing a gjumbe and you know its heavy and big . I still willing to carry . You are like saying 'like me carry lah like me carry lah' ! But i still say no because that is my instrument . So shocked of you , holding my bag for me . And 1 day before 35th anniversay , you didn't notice where am i . I was alone behind and you was walking with Sarah . Hahas , its alright . I understand . Friends talking . Waliyuddin and alot of friends tell me tht you are looking for me . But i didn't know that . So i walk alone behind thinking when you will find me . But you didn't . You still continue walking . Until the traffic light , i was right behind , you still walking . Didn't notice i'm a few metres away from you . And you turn back , you saw me . And waited for me . And that , you stopped , i cross the road already , i thought you will walk with me but you didn't . You ran to Sarah . So lonely again . I ingored you and mix with our class boys . Example : Amos , Harvin , Babu etc . You saw and you are angry . Plus i also ingore Sarah . So i decided to let you guys walk happily . I walk alone . And seriously , this is the first time i was just behind you and you didn't notice . So afterthat in the room , i sit alone again . You haven't came into the room . When the moment you step in the room , i was thinking , i gonna be alone again . But didn't . You seat beside me and i moved . And you moved . And you say 'Janice , are you angry with me ?' I didn't reply back . Then you was telling me the reasons . So i decided to reply back a easy ' k' and walk off . When i step out of the room , i was lonely again . I thought we will never slack today . So Wali ran to me , he tell me the reasons that i think i trust him . So i continue walking . You ran up , you walked with me . Syahir , i just wanna let you know that , at the moment of time , do you know how hurt am i'm ? k , i wasn't blaming at Sarah and you of course . I'm blaming myself k ? And yesterday , meet up with you at TiongPark , You messaqed me something that makes me disappoint with you . So i replied 'No , she just wanna cross over and ............ ' Then my friend when to buy drink , i asked you to prove . I know its hard but you promise you do for my sake . But you didn't . You didn't know i'm sad already . So time is up , you didn't do anything and you told me you feel empty going back . I wanna prove but you keep standing . So i couldn't . I'm sorry for showing the weakest point of Janice Tan Wei Ting . And after you go , i closed my eyes and waiting for it to happen but didn't . So you continued walking and look back . Till you walk to the bus stop , you message me say ' Sorry cannot ' ! You walked and i cried at the same time . I was thinking how long can i see you again ? Next year ? 2 weeks later ? After few weeks you come back from Indo , you gonna go back Austr again . Today , you message me say ' Baby i'm going off now . Don't message me k ? iloveyou ' I'm doing my Saintjohns Flag Day till i didn't notice your message until 1 hour later . I'm still blaming myself why i'm not alert enough to look at my phone . Until now 8:12pm , i'm still blaming myself for making a big mistake . I wanted to cry , but i couldn't . Later my seniors ask me what happen ? I didn't wanna explain. Till now , my face like super red now and tired . I still push myself to sit here and post for you . Also having me as your lazy pig , when i'm sick , you asked me to eat medicine but i reply back 'Bi , lazy lah , Come my house feed me . ' Hahas , you like shocked likethat . You asked me eat because i say i on diet . You scold me . I say i lazy eat medicine you scold me . You are just having a great mind that wanna cherish me . Crazy little boy .. I remember that time , Post Exam Activity , Fuckyou , you damn fast lah . Superman fly up the wall . I at least took 10minutes because baby , i'm noob . Hahas , I injured myself on the eldow . You are like say ' Baby , pain or not ? (Show pain pain face) ' . And i laughed at you . Tak sayang . I'm not weak because i'm SAINTJOHNS ! k , i think you read also will at least read more than 10minutes you sillyboyyyyy ! Hais , i wanna add more . That time i watched movie with Sarah , no one sitting beside me . Was thinking , i keep looking at the seat . Thinking what if you are beside me? How cool isit ? And everything i talk about my last time study , you will say ' Baby , always look at the future not the past ! ' and now i start telling this to my sistar . She says i'm like a grandmother . Hais , Baby , i owe you a kiss on your cheek :X Gonna give you back next year . Don't be happy to fast la you ! Takecare k ? Oh , 1T1's great Grandma trying my hubbyy to eat medicine when you are sick . And i promise you to change my attitude and will prove t you of course . I love Hubbyyyyyyyyyy!

WithLove(s) ,

Wiffyyyyy heartzxc Hubbyyyyyyy !

Don't be shock if you see this you old man !

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Sad thing is , i cannot celebrate our 3rd months together . Dog , he not in Singapore . But we celebrate in our heart !

3rd Months on : 3th December 2009